My go-to deck

The reason I first got interested in tarot where the images on the cards. I just love looking at nice pictures.
With tarot the choices are almost endless. There are so many beautiful decks.

My first deck was the Universal Waite, because someone told me this was the best deck to start with.
The images didn't speak to me at all, so when I started reading, I bought a Thoth deck. This deck I still love for its artwork.

When I started a 3 year tarot course, I had to work with the Rider-Waite tarot, so I bought a standard version. As I learned more about the cards I started to appreciate the Rider-Waite more and more and I gave a good amount of readings with it. My deck is a little worn now, which for me shows how much it is "alive".

Over the years I collected different versions of the Rider-Waite deck. The colours and the backs of the cards vary. Since I find the striped backs of the standard version horrible, I would like to use a different version.
The problem? I just can't do it :-)
Yesterday I pulled my Rider-Waite decks out and gave them all a good look. Started shuffeling with one of the decks I find more appealing. While shuffeling I just knew this wasn't it. The feeling just wasn't right.
I realized I just love my worn standard Rider-Waite. It's a part of me and I just can't let go (yet).

Today I pulled three cards from my beloved deck. The question I asked was: What is the connection between myself and this deck. These where te cards I pulled:

I think these cards really show the connection well.
The II of Cups shows the collaboration between us.
The Empress shows how natural it is for me to work with this deck.
The Queen of Swords shows how clear my readings are with this deck.
But for me she also shows that I'm not looking (well) at the other ones. I'm focused on this one, because of my feelings for it. When I think about it, I know it doesn't matter which one I use.......

But for now, I'm sticking with my good old "standard" Rider-Waite, and I'm happy with it!!

Wrong expectations

Today is a special day! We became aunt en uncle for the first time!! The sister of my husband gave birth to her first child. A little girl named Britt. So special to end the year this way.

My husband is over the moon and that's so sweet. To bad he has to work today and his boss doesn't want to give him a few hours off to visit his siter..... Now we have to wait till tonight before we can see them.

Even though I'm am so happy with the birth of our niece, I'm kind of mad at my husbands boss at the same time. There are lot's of people working today, so there is no reason my husband has to be there all day.
He is always there and doesn't ask for a lot of free time at all. It feels really unfair...

Because I wanted to know what to do with my anger I pulled a card from my good old Rider Waite.
Instead of pulling one, I picked two cards. They just stuck together :-)
And when I looked at them, I could understand why!

I pulled the seven of cups en the ten of swords.
So, these cards show me the illusion we had about how the boss of my husband would react and the way it was feeling when he didn't give him a few hours off.
I felt my husband was beeing stabbed in the back.

The cards bought me in touch with my feelings of disappointment and that is what I wanted to let go.
A beautiful lesson at the end of this year.